Expectation of Meditation

Expectation of meditation; expectation is the belief that something should happen or will happen in the future or that something will happen because a situation should follow a normal sequence of events. We often have expectations of others, which often lead to a perceived positive result or leads to conflict when people don’t live up to our rules, desires, beliefs, etc. of how things should turn out. When it comes to meditation, some practitioners become disillusioned by what they expect from their practices.

The pupil became angry and disheartened with the teacher. “You speak of peace of mind through meditation, peace from the anguish I endure from the loss of my beloved. Peace from the longing and desire to be by their side, to hear their voice, to know they are still here with us. You tell me to mediate and observe the thoughts that rise in my mind that I might experience peace, love and joy again. As if meditation is the magic cure to all the negative things that go on in the world. I try to meditate to alleviate my suffering, yet my suffering knows no end. I expected meditation to end my suffering.” The teacher was silent for a few moments, allowing the pupil to feel the expression of their anguish fully, then the teacher said, “I understand. I see your anger and your sorrow. I see the suffering you endure at the loss of your loved ones. There has been no claim that meditation would end your suffering. Meditation practices bring forward your being. Brings awareness. Allows your true being to access a peace under the suffering. A level of presence which transcends the conflicts created by your mind, your sorrow, your attachment and desire.”

Meditation offers a space for healing and awareness that transcends the workings of the mind. For many, the awareness of the peace that is beyond understanding is felt in the midst of their suffering and they find comfort for themselves despite emotions that seem to have no end. The conflict is the desire to want the suffering to end, which often strengthens its hold on you. By meditating on the suffering, we learn to see it for what it is and find a place to live with it, while we also allow a space for peace, love and joy; experiencing all aspects of the human condition at the same time, and finding wholeness in one’s self. Meditation practices lead to a state of conscious presence that includes awareness of all external and internal workings of all that is. A state of being that no longer holds conflicts with anything and the end of labeling things as good or bad.

A meditation: Practice it here and there, throughout your day, when it comes to mind, or not, focus your attention on an expectation, doesn’t really matter what it is. An expectation or desire of an individual, a mindset, an expectation of humanity, it doesn’t really matter what… For a moment, if you can, drop the desire. If you cannot drop it, imagine it is dropped, then tune your mind into the relief or comfort that surfaces, even if only slightly, as you let the expectation pass. It’s a new day, the best day of your life.

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Inner peace may mean different things to different people. Some may believe that inner peace is different for all of us, which can also make defining inner peace a challenge. For many of us, the desire for inner peace can be clouded by definition or in our inability to possess the knowledge to find such a state of being. For myself, inner peace is a mental state of being not clouded by the repetitive conditioned programmed thinking of my mind. A state of being where my true conscious self is separate from the manipulation of my thought stream. Like too many people, I had a rough start. I was raised in the 1960s during a time where the line between discipline and abuse had not yet been drawn by society and where, in many homes, neglect and victimization was the norm. In too many arenas, it is still the same for many unfortunate children and young people today. As a result of the environment I was raised in, I spent most of my twenties in a state of mental anguish. At the age of 27 I came to the understanding that abusing drugs and alcohol was not the answer for dealing with a tortured mind, and though I was able to accomplish and attain many material things that the world had to offer, I wanted something more, inner peace. After being diagnosed with institutional grade PTSD and several sever forms of depression, I decided to take on the challenge of psychoanalytic therapy. For 13 years, I worked with therapists, psychiatrists, psychoanalysts, and medical doctors to address the disorders that were the result of my upbringing. I included personal studies of psychology and human behavior to add more knowledge in my pursuit of wellness. By the age of 40, as I had always done, I was sharing the knowledge I had gained and my life experience with others with similar situations to my own. Despite my efforts, I could still not separate from the mind of a manic depressive. I could not attain inner peace. My desire for inner peace led me to meditation. Meditation is a practice that separates us from the workings of the conditioned programmed mind and the endless stream of thought. After several months of mediation studies and practice, I began to feel the separation of my true self from the confines and mental torture of my own mind. At that moment a new, although difficult, journey had begun. I spent years of riding the roller-coaster of mental anguish and peace as I continued my struggle to mental freedom. Now, 18 years since my meditation studies commenced, I find myself in a state of conscious presence that allows me to live peacefully with a mind suffering from mental illness. My journey has included sharing my knowledge and understanding of the inner workings of the mind with others to help them attain peace and joy as I have; aiding them in their quest to escape the suffering of the confines of their programmed conditioned minds. I have recently taken my teaching to a new level, carrying myself as a published writer, teaching mediation and sharing the knowledge of the ability for each and every one of us to achieve our natural state of being, which is peace, love and joy.

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